"MY SEEDS"

MY SEEDS INDEED ARE THE BEST PART OF ME..WHENEVER I FELT LIKE GIVING UP!  I THOUGHT ABOUT Y'ALL N IT BROUGHT ME BACK TO REALITY..I KNOW ITS NOT ABOUT A SALARY, BUT THE TIME YOU PUT IN..ALWAYS THERE SINCE THE BEGINNING, BUT TOWARDS THE ENDING, I'VE STRUGGLED TO FINISH..I HAVE MYSELF TO BLAME, BUT I WANT Y'ALL TO KNOW IT WAS NEVER A GAME, I WAS NEVER ASHAMED..I'M PROUD OF EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU..HOW YOU HAVE GROWN AND CONTINUE TO GROW INTO YOUR OWN..EVERYTIME I LOOK UPON YOUR FACES, I THANK GOD FOR WANT 

HE BLESSED ME WITH FOR HE HAS CREATED..ALL YOUR ACCOMPLISHMENTS, I AM JUBILATED..SOMETIMES WE MAY NOT SEE EYE TO EYE, BUT KNOW MY LOVE FOR Y'ALL IS INFINITE NO MATTER OUR DIFFERENCES..POSSIBILITIES N OPPORTUNITIES YOU HAVE ARE LIMITLESS...MORE THAN I COULD'VE IMAGINED WHEN I WAS COMING UP..I REMEMBER NIGHTS STARING MOTIONLESS WHILE I HELD Y'ALL BUNDLED UP.."COULD I BE SOMEONE THAT YOU COULD LOOK UP TO OR EMULATE?" N NOT FALL FROM YOUR CONSCIOUSNESS OF GOOD GRACE..I'M NOT PERFECT, I'VE MADE MANY MISTAKES N HOPEFULLY Y'ALL WILL LEARN FROM MINE N BECOME BETTER INDIVIDUALS IN ANY CASE..AT ANY RATE, YA'LL MEAN THE WORLD TO ME, MORE THAN LIFE ITSELF..I TRY TO SHOW IT AT TIMES, BUT IN MY MIND I KNOW I MIGHT OF FELL SHORT BEFORE I SEEN IT ALL THE WAY THROUGH TO THE FINISH LINE..AND I KNOW ACTIONS MEAN MORE THAN THESE LINES, AS I WAS TAUGHT PAINFULLY BY MY FATHERS DESIGNS..IT'S DEFINITELY A GRIND AND A CHALLENGE TO BE A PARENT..MANY PEOPLE, AS THEY FIND OUT THAT IS APPARENT...BUT IT'S A PRIVILEDGE NEVER TO BE TAKEN LIGHTLY..I WILL ALWAYS FIGHT TO "DO THE RIGHT THING" LIKE "SPIKE LEE"..EVEN IF I HAVE TO CRAWL DOING IT..Y'ALL MADE ME MORE AWARE, RESPONSIBLE, N QUESTION THE FUTURE DECISIONS  I MADE BEFORE I WOULD MAKE THEM..WITHOUT MY SEEDS I HAVE NO IDEA WHERE I WOULD BE OR WOULD'VE BEEN ..IT DEFINITELY KEPT ME OUT OF DEEPER SIN..AFTER HIGH SCHOOL I WAS TRYING TO FIND MYSELF AGAIN N AGAIN..TRYING TO WRAP MY THOUGHTS AROUND THE FACT THAT ON ME SOMEONE ELSE WAS DEPENDIN..IT TOOK ME A WHILE TO ADJUST, BUT THROUGH IT ALL CLOSE FAMILY AND FRIENDS NEVER GAVE UP ON ME AT ALL..I KNOW GOD NEVER DID, HE STILL HERE ADMIST MY IMPERFECTIONS..GIVING ME HIS LOVE AND THE LOVE OF MY KIDS WHEN I FELT AT MOMENTS I DIDN'T HAVE A REASON TO LIVE..BEING A WOMEN THAT'S A SINGLE PARENT WITH KIDS IS DEFINITELY A FULL-TIME JOB, WORD! TO MY MOM!!!..BUT BEING A MAN WITH NO JOB THAT WANTS THE BEST FOR HIS SEEDS AND WANTS TO DO THE RIGHT THING, IS JUST AS EQUALLY HARD..FOR THE ONES THAT DO CARE, WE ALSO BECOME SCARRED..NO EXCUSES!!! IN THIS DECK OF CARDS..IT IS OUR RESPONSIBILITY TO TRY HARDER TO BE BETTER FATHERS..NO MATTER HOW THE SYSTEM OR ANYONE DISCARDS OUR VALUE AS THE FAMILY PATRIARCH..GROWING UP, MY "GRANDFATHER" PERSONIFIED EVERY DIMENSION OF THAT PART..SHOULD OF SEEN THE PICTURE/WASN'T PRETTY, BUT DEFINITELY A WORK OF ART..HE GAVE HIS BLOOD, SWEAT, TEARS, AND HIS HEART..AND THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT IT WILL HAVE TO TAKE TO GET THAT LABEL N STATISTIC OFF OUR BACKS N OUT OF OUR FACE..SO WE MAY CLAIM OUR PLACE, IN THE HOUSEHOULD N BE EFFICENT FOR OUR EQUALLY STRONG WOMEN..I MYSELF HAVE STRUGGLED WITH THE NON-EXISTENCE OF MY PRESENCE AT CERTAIN SEQUENCES OF MY SEEDS LIVES..BUT THE EFFORT WAS THERE, I ALWAYS TRIED EVEN IF I WAS VILLIFIED FROM EYES THAT WERE LAYED ON ME AND DESPISED..THIS IS A SMALL WORLD, AND I KNOW EVENTUALLY I HAVE TO COME FULL CIRLCE WITH THE ONLY JUDGEMENT OF ME THAT COULD EVER HOLD ANY SIGNIFICANCE WITH ME AND THAT IS HE (GOD)...BUT MY SEEDS..(MY CHILDREN)..OPINONS OF I WEIGHS MORE THAN ANY TREASURE THAT WILL EVER BE MEASURED, I PRAY MY ACTIONS DON'T CAUSE OUR BOND TO BE SEVERED FOREVER..."I LOVE YOU ALWAYS"....

"MY SEEDS"   By Rashine McKoy