"What Does It All Mean?"

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I sit in silence, eye enjoy da quiet
Listening to da breeze dat dangle da trees
Stem n leaves
Rain on da pane begins to sing
Dew sits on da eaves
Da outside of deez eyes don't see much hope
Never take personal what eye have wrote
But if you do, join da line wit da rest of da folks

This tongue can speak in tongue's 
Make women cum
Get a rope, make man high-strung
When depression had come
I dropped to my knees n asked God please
To save me from me

An outcast cast in da wrong scene
Life!
What does it all mean?
Eye try to get a grip on reality
Figure da formality from my dreams
Money has no value to him
To stimulate slim
Only loyalty n true friendship balance da pendulum

Voices n memories kickin' em', belittle em'!
He lost his desire to make a difference 
Many turned their back on in
Gave up on em', stop believing in him
Past quintessential gems
Tears on his pillow are soaked n drenched with quite a bit of them

Rooms lit when he cracked a smile
But now he frowns cause da one's he valued da most are no longer around
Drops n drops continue to slide down
Many masks worn beneath da scowl
Robinson of happiness, Smokey underneath da clown
To hide da tears he doesn't want to be found

Baboom!, Baboom!
His heart continues to pound
But he wonders when da beat stop
Will those dat abandoned him, finally see n understand that this was a simple man
Who wanted nothing more than, to rise above wickedness n provide for his fam
Like only he can

To others he extended his kindness as far as he could
Driven n perpetuated by good
But evol was always lurking behind him in da shadows wherever he stood
Many times taken for granted, leaving him for dead to be examined
People have no idea what's inside this man's sanctum
We are not from da same planet

Even though we occupy da same universe
His brain is a signal for beacons for light to emerge
"Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it"
4:23, check da Proverb!
It becomes more n more absurd to be around humans on da streets wit no morals near their curb
Like a sinister woman's agenda, he see's slick advances beyond da curves
Even farther, tantalizing expressions n movements spoken before da words

He glances at da sky, he envy's da birds
Jealous of his peers no longer here, cause they are free spirits above da clouds roaming over da earth
Vitals almost thwarted before a 9 month cycle
Didn't have an encouraging birth

Been in a bad mood for consecutive years
Stare see's da whole sea of ambiguous faces dat stare
Fake prodigious beings with insidious glares
Trademarks  (™)
Beware!, when they appear
The mark of da beast
Division where you n ya wife sleeps
Enclosed in a box, confessions to Priest 
Holmes holed in wit Chiefs, secretly another Candyman sexing ya sweets

Subtle tones n signs
Very discreet!
Tentative beliefs, shaken ya faith
Down pours of a Noah flood once again a onus on us
Measures taken to destroy a sinful race
Dat about covers da base of a landfill wit waste
Sodom n Gomorrah, despicable taste! 
Torment administered after da wraith

Our Father admonished our existence cause we abused it senseless
Our thinking is confused wit endless
Logic in da diagnostics of today's technology engines
Killing our inhabitants, using up resources n using da bible as an improbable fiction
People acting like da Big Man upstairs can't strike us all down where we sittin'

Smh, we not even flinchin'!
Til' another catastrophe happens, HE gives you ya severance pay wit no pension
Media turn heads away from HIS extension
But got Jesus hangin' on crosses everywhere in churches across da global system
Atlantic n Pacific
And I'm being specific! not referring to an oceanous greek god dat presides in Olympus 
They don't really get into it, like it's non-existent
All deez calamities occur, we turn a blind eye n a deaf ear like we not even listening
Informal indifference?!

I'm sick of writing!
Sick of da honorable mentions
Fed up wit violence, disease n sickness
Death please be gentle when you come wit no warning inflicted
It's on us to rewrite da ship of our history misfortune, dat keeps us captivated, imprisoned, n cornered

"What Does It All Mean?" By Ra Shine McKoy