"Never Again"

Never again, will I let love cripple me

A penny for my thoughts if you could really see da good in me

Apart from all da anger n pain dat reside in he

My silence is a damned daily deadly weapon, Dreams n Nightmares choke me in my bed when I'm restin', People take advantage of you if you let em'

Experience from my perspective

Even my tears became real aggressive

Attackin' what was left of my inner essence

And

Dis not a message!

Eye only spit real shit man like a septic 

A sinner n a prodigy, vanquished from da promised land, Black Sheep of my fam, Roaming like a cell signal in yo' hand

My soul is scarred!, jarred 

Bottle up emotions 

All in one motion

Like Shine was left for dead down in da bottom ocean

No life, just a freakin' body floatin'

Deez words are not encoded 

When you read, you see my mind is more than just a notion

Loyalty n Honor taken for granted, by underhanded cats dat are satanic

We live our lives da best we can, even tho some try to plan it

Eye feel alone like I came from a different planet

Abandoned!

Love supposed to heal, not make you feel

Like you suffocatin' in a cornfield

Drownin' in some liquor from memories dat tend to kill

Swirlin' on a higher plain from weed n pills

Consecrated beliefs, strugglin' wit yo' faith concealed

Fire-arm to ya brain, no safety!

But know if you pull it, all you gon' see is da underground like hades

No escape!

I CRY OUT for da Lord to make a better way

Everyday!!!!

Word to my seeds, da only reason dat eye seem to breathe

Everything around looks suspect to me

Eye was born into another era n a different breed

Wish eye could fly away, like a 

Blue-Jay just like Dave Stieb

People who eye thought had my back, put me in a pic n they tried to frame me 

Til' my eyez were open like da pages in deez notes eye let you witness

While most lack what they write in they definitions

My spirit

Battles wit da good n wicked

I'm cursed among da gifted

Imprisoned for da kindness I exhibit 

Never again, will eye let love cripple me or my existence

((THROWS PEN DOWN))

I'm Finished!!!!

"Never Again" 
by Ra Shine McKoy aka Shawn Stare