"Where is da Love?"

I'm a pisces 
Eye love hard!
Sometimes that's my downfall
Loyal to a fault
Iown know
That's just da ground I stand on
I'm dumb nice but dead wrong!

For I've made TONS of MISTAKES
But met em' head on!
Try to put us in a box
We diversified in it like crayons

Da bullshit?!!!
Is what I'm not on
At this point in my life
I'm just blessed to be among da living

Rather da alternative

Where others on da other side got cold visions
I'm not perfect!
At times I feel worthless
Then I recognize my own Legend
That alone, keeps giving me purpose

Soul been torn, twisted,
It's not a diversion
My past is my past
But now?!
A different person

Where is da love?
Is it wit another person?
Strugglin wit adverse choices in thee excursion
Life not fair!, who said it ever was
There's no guarantees in love
Choose wisely, pick one!
And be strong  in your quest for this son
What we put out, we get back
And then some!
Stay grounded!
Remember where you came from

It ain't fun

If you make it to the top
And alone at every stop
Then really
What have you got?
Whatever you do, stay true 2 you

Pray for better dayz in a desolate world
Full of deceit, lies, murder, n anguish
Spit it in any language, spanglish!
Mita mami
You get da picture
That's over ya head
Light bulb!
But eye remain da main fixture

It's da

Path that we on
That will determine our outcome
A generated algorithm where emotion is lonesome
Was once a prince n became a King
Who would be nothing without his Queen
Grand scheme of things
Love holds no boundaries in this fallacy

Shine 

Johnny P's Caddy ((freestyle))

Shawn Stare · Shawn Stare- Johnny P's Caddy ((freestyle))

Yo'! this life that I'm livin'

Loyalty, the price of admission

Severed division

As a people we are never committed 

They tried to straight-jacket my flow

Rap me up in it!

But I escaped, found my existence

Shine

Stay lifting deez bars, like I came back from da yard

Dying is easy, livin' is hard

If you bless wit some heart, better put up ya guard

Dead brethrens, see da souls that are scarred

Kindred spirits ajar

Demons on a nightly basis I spar

Serving you lyrics, a benevolent figure

Triggered that's marred

My faith is strong but my hope is lost in da throngs

In da Congo wit Kongs

Still a King, take a puff off da bong

Spent a decade writing my wrongs

This for my day ones fuckin' wit Shawn

Who told me never give up, put in dat work

Ya dreams will come soon enough yo', put GOD first!

Niggaz wit or without money

Don't know which one presumably worse

I'm surrounded by jerks, no self in they worth

Benjamin Buttons, livin' life in reverse

When it's all said n done, we all gettin' reprimanded back to da earth

Like anything else, this shit come wit some perks

Guess that's what they mean, when they say this gift come wit a curse

I'm on a diligent search 

To rescue myself immersed in sewage dat covered my light

Take flight, soar, render my purpose

Help, revive others breathe above surface

In a cesspool polluted wit grimey insurgents 

Stay calm if your nervous!

Never showing ya hand

Ya integrity n morals something on which you should stand

Never break for any woman or man

Shawn Stare

I will devour ya Klan

Nat Turner

Go decapitate all of ya fam

Reprovision for my ancestors lives taken n all of they land

No segregation

Holocaust was equally damned

Hellfire cast on helpless spirits, straits that were dire

Lord strike me if I'm a liar

Nothing's changed, not even things we try to acquire

Assholes wit paper n power at da root of da tower

They send signals, distorting our prowess

Fuck hours!, been reclusive for years

Buried a host of my peers

Mr. Shakur

Eye shedded so many tears

Everything ain't what it appears

Meet situations head-on to conquer your fears

This world is just weird

Unless you been in them shoes

How can you judge what he or she do?

It's love over hate, look what they spew

Real time don't coincide wit da way social media moves

Take responsibility for da stuff you employ

The same shit make you sad is what you enjoy

It's all just a ploy

Some remain deadly n coy

Underneath eye see resident evil occupying ya host

A little Alicia, but way more clever wit deez Keyz that I stroke

Don't lose me, follow the smoke

Every word that I wrote is meant to provoke

Thought Woke people with a measure of scope

The ones who fill ballet boxes wit votes

Praying things change, knowing it won't

Angst builds, tensions fly!, sparkin' da tides

A solution, mandatory! if we wanna survive

If not

Prepare our blood to darken the sky

The ending is nye

We at da forefront of da line

By Shawn Stare

"Betrayal"

Only God can save you
Irrevocable Judge & Jury on the things we do
You understand the language in which my tongue speaks
It's bilingual 

Lobes tingle
Spines shiver

Anytime truth in the package is delivered
Best believe it's an abundant amount of secrets buried in that river
And somehow, it always reaches the surface
Even if smoke was generated to devise a diversion
Excluded is no person, not even eye

Tried to put the past behind, face it!
On the canvas
Instead of
Brush it aside
For every instance eye cried
Seems to be a moment our tears crossed paths on the timeline
And they met up at a neutral destination of our gigantic pouring
outcries
We just created more pain
As will slowly withered & died

Exterior beauty
But in a span, saw an individuals ugliness on thee inside
You might of chose to stick around cause love had you blind
A grappling choke hold on ya heart n mind
Sometimes it can take a lifetime in one's lifeline to come to grips wit their pride
Be a little off da axle, unevenly aligned
You pray they realize this before they meet their demise
Once you come out da dream, it's no mystery like Einstein

You don't have to be a genius to see a web of lies, assembled
It just takes a minute to break da spell 
As you are caught in the spindle
A victim of your own bullshit constructed, clenched in da middle
With help from another wit identical charges, both wanting acquittal 
My brain a weapon wit notes orchestrated in my temple

Soul craves to be happy, but never that simple
Most might say you make stuff harder than it has to be
But I'm not you & your not me
So the light from one's energy shines out differently

((sigh)) So many scars from memories

Lord!

Please grant me serenity & show me how to forgive another's
betrayal, see!
Portrait difficult to look away from nonchalantly
Without a problem in the world like a spirit that's carefree
Some conversations "For Your Ears Only" like The Whispers be

It's taken nearly 
All my strength to recuperate to turn thee other
cheek from the stinging lingering after affects of this injury

Living in an age where it's less & less loyalty
And more about planned out escapes interfaced wit ingenuity
We are specimens on this earth
By others, tagged with a lot of labels
But commitment to a human being never wavered if I respected
you, numerous occasions
The angles rocked in the cradle killed desire & compassion
Almost turned fatal
Yup!, eye know
That's how it feels when you feel somebody has played you
No fables
A real NeverEnding Story that happens in society like Atreyu

Betrayal

Is harder to forgive when it's someone close to you like ya navel
Our communities in shambles
In a state of chaos & shock like battery cables
The ones geared to serve & protect us
Turn around beat us down like their paid to
Auntie said, if you don't grant leniency to that person that did you wrong
You'll carry it never having peace & give them power over your life
Beyond belief
While they sleep tight at night, long gone

Nephew

You gotta be strong!
Lift ya head high with dignity & carry on
Or else what you harbor inside n festers will destroy you
Everyday the sunsets til' you wake to the dawn
The beast on the interior will never receive any calm
I said, (smh) c'mon
God is going to have to work diligently on me wit dat song!
Cause like most, eye too reckon that betrayal is probably worse
than death

Somethin' eye won't except!

Some folks are reading this now, diggin' my dialect
Like yeah!, I been there bro
Know exactly where you pulled ya concept
Especially after
You gave all your sweat
Shared all of yourself when messes got sticky hot & went south,
Inept!
Word sun!. you know eye can get more into depth
Funny how one forgets
How you stuck around for the long haul, never gave up & left
Gotta get in those books, heal, & study for that test

Eye imagine

The final result bein' a great testimony once you've come full circle
When the story is finished
Hopefully gettin'
A chance to step to the podium to speak n address
The crowd & share what you've learned in ya quest
Empowered & enlightened wit a better outlook from what's confessed

"Betrayal" by Ra Shine McKoy aka Shawn Stare

"Get A Grip"

On reality
He trying to
4 subtracted by 1 minus 2
One remains
Minus you
There was a time he would of did anything & died for you
But now he like
Fuck You!....

And your WHOLE existence
Your face at da bottom of the commode
He shits in
Eye know
These words not meant to be nice Sid
He Vicious!

She didn't 
Care
When she was 
Out there
With other niggaz
She was being malicious!
Any mention
Of her name

Turns this dude 
Green
Hulk MASSIVE!
You dirty little whore
Ratchet!
He was quiet, passive
A bastard

Dreams lynched from the lashings
If the fire-arm was in reach of his hand
Your reflection
He would of blasted
Rearranged her intestines from knots
Jamaican bumbaclot
Body full of blood clots like a coagulant
"The Games People Play"
Like the Spinners
She mastered it!

Plastered it!
On walls
For everyone from her kids down to her family to see
Slept around with a married man & others
For a quickie
She did she
Couldn't get a grip on 
R~e~a~l~i~t~y

Redid her outer image
But still ugly on the inside with foul intentions 
Depending on other underlying contingents  

Mastered sheets of bedspreads
His eyes menstrual cycle code RED!
He was "Misled"
By a Gang of visions & it
Wasn't Kool
Their daughter sibling said, she took pleasure in him being her little fool
Thinking he puttin' smiles on her face

But

It wasn't true
It was that other dude
He said, she can suck a billion dicks
And hopes she chokes on a trillion more
Like the earth, underneath his feet
Beneath the mantle
It burned him to the core

He had to treat the person he once loved
Like a stranger in the street
Heart turned cold
Like what is skated on by the Toronto Maple Leafs
Drew a line in the sand, like Van Damme
"No Retreat, No Surrender"
Could not fathom defeat
In his face
You could see death came in the middle of the night
Like a random thief
You started to witness, the blue in his cheeks

Swiped the life out of
His b~o~d~y
Before that
He tried to put the shotty
To his temple
To forever separate & take the weight of the nightmares off of his mind
Couldn't get a grip & pull the trigger
But he was truly inclined

Eye guess he saw that as a sign

Put the car in park, reluctant to drive
Most think they have the wheel
Not knowing the Lord is in control
We just come along for the ride

Looking at the ocean
Amazing how quickly the tide, can change
The thoughts that fan the flames
Life isn't a game
The nature of people emotions are not to be played with or taken lightly

Put this in your arm like an IV
Some are not compatible
One could be type A
The other type B
And eye know you can C & feel da fluids being transferred
Being amplified throughout your system like a re~verb
And it's a trip how cats hang on to every word like tires do 
Thee curb

Your enthusiasm
It gets misplaced in the session of one's rhetoric
You might not like the medicine
Going down
But it's good for ya
It heals & it brings clarity despite the disparity

Writing is therapeutic & eye use it!
Eye design real graphic art for the viewer
Make music for the listener
Administer
Stories of my own & people I'm close to
Surrounded by
Suffocating leaking memories of odor giving off like formaldehyde

Don't ride 
The coattails,
Speak your own truth, be you!
Ride the waves & let the boat sail
If you don't receive this message in a bottle
Smith
Then
I'll assume you lost "Focus"
Like him
And you never Will

This how eye let the ink spill
Get a grip!
Don't let your intuition fall to the bullshit

"Get A Grip" by Ra Shine McKoy aka Shawn Stare